Testimonials: Real-Life Cancer Healing Stories (3)

Breast cancer remission

Case with bleak diagnosis healed after a single regression therapy session

He understood. Rainer had been drinking a lot, and had left me to myself very often.

How did things develop with you and Rainer after you had told him?

We lived together like brother and sister. We brought up our child together.

Did he also have a girlfriend?

No, he used to say that I would come back to him. And I didn't leave but stayed with him, at least in a spatial sense...

So he did love you?

Yes.

Did you have any feelings of guilt?

No.

How long did the affair with your new boyfriend last?

Ten years. I loved him so much and hoped to be together with him. But it wasn't meant to be.

Why did it end?

He was married.

Just like you?

Yes.

Did you ever speak about wanting to break up with your spouses, in order to be together?

Yes.

Perhaps he never truly wanted this at all. For him it was just a love affair. Am I right?

Yes.

But you wanted more?

Yes.

What was your greatest heartache, as you found out or realized this?

His insincerity and my weakness.

And then, after these ten years, how did things continue with Gerhard?

We continued to work together.

You continued to work together?

Yes and I wanted to have a friendship. This is so important when one has shared a part of life’s journey in this way. But he couldn't do it. He did the same thing my teacher had done with me.

And he continued to do so, even after these ten years?

Yes he did... he kept pressing me, he wouldn‘t accept. But I, I didn't want anymore.

Why didn't you want anymore?

No, it was impossible. I had understood that he couldn‘t do it the way I wanted it, and I need things to be clear-cut in my life.

And what became of the relationship at home, with Rainer? Did it change?

Yes.

In what way?

We became closer again. In fact, we had never been apart.

Could you also have better sexual relations?

No.

How come? Why didn’t it work?

I feel like I am committing incest. He is like my father. And I really would love it to be different.

Would you like to add something on how things further developed, or can we leave it at that?

Leave it at that.

Another question. Do you continue to see Gerhard today?

No.

Are you still together with Rainer?

Yes.

And your Higher Self leads you once again into the bed of clouds, where you recover from everything. The golden ray of divine light enters your body, and a feeling of complete well-being surrounds you. And you know that some hard things have happened in your present life, heavy blows of fate, as they say, and all this could naturally have a connection to your cancer. But now ask your Higher Self: “Does the real cause of this illness lie in a past life? What does it say?

Yes.

And you are now allowed to find out the cause, your Higher Self is leading you back to it, far back into a past life. And your Higher Self takes you by the hand, and you are floating through a wall of clouds, crossing a long, wide vale of clouds, all coloured in pink and gold. And all of a sudden you see a wide wall of clouds before you - likewise in pink and gold. And there are many gates within it. And you are floating towards one of these gates. Now you are standing in front of it. You can touch it with your hands, and you know that the door will open in a short while. And telepathically, your Higher Self conveys to you: "I will count to three, dear Marion, and then you will be one day before the event that is the cause of your present-day cancer. Here, take another sip from this little bottle. As you are already aware, the liquid tastes nice and it gives you the ability to not only clearly see and recognize everything in a moment, but also to feel it." And now you take a large sip from the little bottle and then return it. And all of a sudden you begin to feel the pleasant warmth in your stomach, and you know that at the count of three, you‘ll find yourself on the day immediately before the important event X. You will perceive everything precisely. 1, 2, 3. Now you are there.

- LIFE AS A MAID IN HOLLAND -

First have a look at your feet. Are you barefoot or are you wearing some kind of footwear?

I am wearing clogs.

Do they have a color or ...?

Yes, somewhat like mouldy wood; puffed up.

And the rest of your clothes? Have a look, what are you wearing?

I am wearing a gray dress, with a gray apron and a gray scarf.

The gray scarf, is it bound around the head?

It‘s bound around the head.

How old are you at the moment?

I am 41.

What is your name?

Evelyn. (It is possible that the Dutch name has a similar pronunciation.)

Evelyn, which country are you in?

Holland.

What do you do, Evelyn? Just observe the daily routine at your work.

I am a maidservant.

At what time do you get up in the morning?

At 5.

How long do you have to work in the evenings?

Into the night.

Until evening, right?

Much longer. Into the night.

How long exactly?

Until it is quite dark.

Who do you work for?

... (no reply)

What kind of people are that, who you work for, whom you serve?

They are farmers.

And I am sure you also know which year you are in. 1, 2, 3. There it is!

1298.

(As we have already explained [note: in the book The Great Handbook of Reincarnation], numbers are often distorted. The chances are that she means the year 1829).

Have you ever been married or are you still married?

No.

Have you ever had any kind of relationship with a man?

The farmer.

The farmer himself? Is he married?

Yes.

Have a close look at the farmer, and tell me what he looks like.

Tall and squat, blonde and coarse-featured.

Do you like him?

No.

Then how did he force you?

When I am in the field, he‘ll come along on his horse and climb down. I even go to meet him.

How come you even go towards him?

Because I know what he wants.

Now if you hadn‘t gone to meet him, what would he do?

Then he would hit me with his whip.

And where does he undress you?

He doesn‘t undress me. I am wearing several skirts on top of each other, but I’m not wearing any underpants.

And you lift up the skirts, and he enters you from behind?

Yes, from behind. It all happens very quickly.

Do you have any pleasurable sensation while doing this?

No.

How often does this happen, actually?

Nearly every day.

Aren't you getting pregnant?

No.

How come you aren‘t getting pregnant?

I am not a real woman.

How do you mean?

I think that I am simply too narrowly built. Things aren't... . I am not all right.

What do you think isn‘t all right? Have you ever been to the doctor?

No. No money.

I will now count to three, and you will find yourself experiencing the important event X. You are able to accurately perceive everything. 1, 2, 3. Now you are there.

I‘m lying in bed. A wooden bed. I am in pain.

Where is the pain located?

All over, in the stomach and in the breasts.

Have you experienced this pain for a while, or is it a recent thing?

It‘s a new thing.

How has this come about? How do you explain the occurrence of this pain to yourself?

I have the devil in my body.

How do you know that you have the devil in your body?

I feel it, it must be that way.

Why must it be that way?

Another woman would not be treated like this.

By whom?

By the man.

And this has to do with this farmer?

Yes.

How does it feel to have the devil in your stomach? Explain it to me in a little more detail.

It’s a burning feeling.

Where is it burning? Inside the stomach? Also in the chest?

Yes.

And you are really afraid, aren’t you?

Yes, I am really scared. And now he (?) is bringing a smoothing iron.

The farmer?

No, the wife, the farmer‘s just standing there and instructing his wife. With a hot flat-iron, filled with water, and it‘s emitting steam.

And he‘s ordering her to do - what? ...

To place it there on the affected part, to ease the pain.

But the flat-iron is hot?

Yes, it‘s hot.

What do you feel as this is happening?

I am cauterized.

Do they want ... do they believe that the devil is in there and that he can be driven out by the heat of the flat-iron?

I believe so, yes.

And does the farmer believe so too?

Yes, I think so. Now I am in pain. (moaning in pain).

And now I will count to three, and then it is all over. 1, 2, 3. Now what do you suddenly notice? Are you still lying in bed? Are you feeling relieved?

I feel so ill.

(I intuitively realized that even more accumulated pain had to be released from her emotional body. Therefore:) Go once again directly into the pain. Experience it once again. Now the flat-iron is pressed directly on the chest. What kind of pain is this? Let all the pain out.

This is like being cauterized, cauterized!!!

This must hurt like crazy. How do you bear this? Aren't you screaming? What are you screaming?

I scream: "Help! Stop that!" But they aren't listening.

Have you been tied up, or what are they doing otherwise?

No, they are holding me down firmly.

Yes, they are holding you down firmly and you are screaming.

The farmer's wife is doing this, and he is holding me down firmly. Oh, God!

And how long does this last? Does it happen more than once?

No, it happens only once. Once for a long stretch of time. (expressing pain)

Now I will count to three, and it is all over. 1, 2, 3. Now it is all over.

You are lying in bed now. Are your breasts still burning?

Yes. (almost whining)

Are you crying? Are they standing there? Are they saying anything? How do the two of them react?

No, they are leaving, leaving me alone.

What are your feelings after this, now that you are alone? What are your feelings?

I am not a woman.

Why aren‘t you a woman?

Now I don't even have breasts anymore.

How could they take your breasts off you?

They have cauterized them. Cauterized through the heat.

And you feel that now your womanhood is finished.

Yes.

What are you the saddest or angriest about? What are your feelings?

So humiliated. These are my feelings anyhow: lots of anger. Why do I allow this to happen to me? Why don't I have the courage to say: "I am leaving."?

Do you resolve to do anything, once you are up and about again?

I feel so small. The others are so strong. What am I supposed to do? I don't have a home. I must stay there, I must bear it. But perhaps the farmer will not harass me anymore. Now I don't have breasts anymore and my womb is deformed. Perhaps he‘ll leave me in peace now.

Why is your womb deformed?

Because I haven‘t got any children.

Why are you deformed?

I just think so.

And now what do you think of the devil inside you? Has he been expelled?

There was no such thing.

That is now quite clear to you, isn't it ...?

Yes.

You just allowed yourself to get talked into it.

Yes.

Who was the first one to declare that the devil is in your chest?

The farmer's wife.

Why didn‘t she fetch the priest who could have exorcized him?

That costs money.

Did the farmer's wife know that you were the person her husband was after?

Yes.

Do you think she might have done it out of spite, to get you, or to spoil her husband’s fun so that from then on he would consider you useless as a woman?

I can well imagine that.

The farmer, he was sort of enslaved by his wife, she had him in the palm of her hand, or what was it like?

Yes, but only at home.

I‘ll now count to three, and then it will be one year before your death. 1, 2, 3. How old are you now?

I am 59.

Do you still live at the farm?

No.

Where are you now?

I am a maid again.

Where?

At a judge's place.

And now very briefly experience your death, ... and now you are already dead and looking back. How did you die?

I got smallpox.

And are you glad to have died?

Yes.

Have a look at your whole life. What kind of title would you give to this life?

Service.

And now if you were supposed to say: "Never again will I ..." What would that be?

Serve.

Does this mean, "never again get into a dependent relationship"?

Yes. (strongly accentuated)

You feel very strongly about this.

Yes I do.

- IN FRONT OF THE CLOUD GATE -

And when I have finished counting to three, you will be before the cloud gate again with your Higher Self. 1, 2, 3. You remember everything, everything has stayed in your memory. Ask your Higher Self: "Why was I supposed to live such a life of hardship?" What does your Higher Self say?

You have to learn to look after yourself.

Let your Higher Self explain - what does this have to do with Marion's cancer? What does It say to you?

If I trust in God, then I needn‘t have any fears, then I needn't fear any kind of dependency.

And you didn‘t have this as Evelyn. This trust in God was missing in you, otherwise you wouldn‘t have had to fear anything.

Yes.

But why did you have to develop cancer as Marion? Why did your breast have to be removed?

Because through that, I found God once again. I made changes in my life.

Only after the loss of your breast or already before that?

No, afterwards. I needed that.

So what has changed for you, after the amputation?

I‘ve changed everything. I rearranged my life. Personally, I did nothing. I was being guided.

What were you like before the operation, what was it like before the cancer? What kind of person were you then as compared to later on?

I was ..., I am the same person. What was different is that I suddenly came to certain decisions. I told myself that there was a meaning behind this, and I explored it, and I really looked at it as a major heads-up. Before that, I had pushed God into the background, and all of a sudden, He was there.

In what form was He there?

I saw Jesus Christ while meditating, and I felt his warmth. I could pray. And suddenly I was exactly back at the point where I had stopped earlier. And I received some sort of power that helped me to pull through everything that I wanted to. I stopped smoking, stopped drinking coffee, all that stuff. I found a straight path and also began to see the world in a different light, as well as life in general and other people.

I‘ll be counting to three again, and you’ll then be standing in front of the cloud gate again. 1, 2, 3. And now ask your Higher Self: "Is there a reason or cause for having had to experience such a dreadful life as a maid, where I even got my breasts burned or cauterized?" What does your Higher Self say?

- LIFE AS MUSTAFA -

(spontaneously:) I have cut off a thief's hands.

I‘ll now count to three, and you‘ll find yourself on the day before the day when the thief's hands were cut off. 1, 2, 3. Who are you now?

Mustafa.

Why don’t you talk a bit about your life.

I am an African.

Which country are you in, Mustafa?

In the Congo.

In which year?

1230.

What do you do, Mustafa?

I have a large number of wives.

Are you rich?

Yes, very rich.

Are you a trader in something?

Yes.

How did you get wealthy?

I am trading in cloths.

Take a look at yourself. What do you look like? Feel your body.

Physically, I am tall and really fat.

How many wives do you have?

18.

How old are you now?

32.

Mustafa, now go into the situation leading up to your cutting off the thief's hands. Now you are there. What are you doing?

I am counting money.

And?

And I have to... I have been called outside to settle an argument between my wives. As I return, I see my servant Mullah bent over my big coffer and reaching into it.

And how do you react?

I am shouting at him.

And then?

I am showing him the door, and I am sitting in judgment, holding court.

How are you doing this?

With my friends and neighbors. And we decide to cut off Mullah's right hand. And since I am Mullah's owner, I am the one who has to do this.

How are you doing it?

I have a kind of machete. And with a single blow, the hand is severed.

Who‘s holding Mullah? How is this like? Is he screaming?

He‘s screaming, and the blood is spurting out.

How do you feel?

Satisfied.

Is all this taking place in the open?

It‘s taking place in public, and people are happily applauding.

Is the servant married? Does he have children?

No.

What‘s happening to Mullah after losing his right hand?

I‘m sending him away.

Whereto?

That doesn‘t concern me. Away, away, out of our village.

Go forward in time now. Do you ever hear anything about Mullah and what has become of him?

Yes, he‘s become a beggar.

In this life as Mustafa – is there anything else of importance that has happened, anything you‘ve done, perhaps an infamous act or whatever? Go there. 1, 2, 3. Now you are there.

No. I was a good merchant.

- ONCE AGAIN IN FRONT OF THE CLOUD GATE -

And all of a sudden, you are standing in front of the cloud gate again with your Higher Self and you clearly remember everything. Ask your Higher Self now: Why did you have to live this life as Mustafa, why?

I don't know.

Do you know that according to Islamic law it is legitimate to cut off a thief‘s hand? So you‘ve perfectly acted within the stipulations of Mohammed's law. I wonder if you still carry a feeling of guilt?

Yes.

Why do you feel guilty?

I feel guilty towards myself. I also did not have the correct impression of this person.

Then how should you have handled it better?

I should have seen it better, looked into it better.

What should you have seen?

I should have recognized..., my knowledge of human nature should have been better.

What else could you have done with Mullah?

I couldn‘t have done anything else. The law demands it, after all.

So you were innocent?

No, I was at fault.

What do you accuse yourself of? Why is your heart in conflict with your head?

I want inner peace in my life, and this doesn‘t go with it. I also wish my servants to be part of my family.

Then what should you have done to make this happen?

I should have simply said that I refuse to accept this law.

But couldn't you have prevented right from the start that the idea of robbing you even occurred to Mullah? Why did he want to rob you?

Maybe something befell him, perhaps he didn‘t want to do it at all.

Perhaps he was misled and succumbed to the temptation?

Yes.

Maybe he had debts and needed to get money by hook or by crook. Perhaps he was also angry with you and wanted to somehow even it out with you in his own way.

No, I do think that he was simply misled at that time because we are a big family, a good family.

And now ask your Higher Self: Is there still another life serving as a reason or cause for your later having your breasts burned with a flat-iron? Is there yet another reason or causal event that made it imperative that you suffer as you did as a maid? What does your Higher Self say?

- LIFE AS A SWEDISH SOLDIER IN DENMARK -

I see soldiers.

I will count to three, and all of a sudden you’ll be there, having a close look at what‘s happening. 1, 2, 3.

I see a soldier on a horse.

Are you just watching him, or is that yourself?

It‘s me.

What are you doing?

I have a soldier lying on the ground below me. I‘ve stabbed him in the chest with my sword (perhaps a dagger or knife?).

Where exactly did it penetrate? Into the chest?

Exactly through the heart... He was my friend!

Then why did you drive the sword into his chest?

He took my woman.

Is your anger, your revenge satisfied now? How do you feel after committing this act?

Bad.

Why do you feel bad?

Because I loved him, he was my friend.

And how do you deal with your woman now? Now you are there. What are you doing with her?

I don't want her anymore.

So what are you doing?

I am sending her away.

Where are you sending her?

Back to her family.

What country are you in?

I don't know.

All of a sudden, you get the calendar year you are in. 1, 2, 3.

1780.

And I am counting to three, and all of a sudden you know where you are. What do the people look like? Are they light or dark-skinned? All of a sudden you have the answer. 1, 2, 3. Where are you?

Germany.

Are you a German, or are you a foreigner? What is you name?

Pit.

Where were you born, Pit?

I was born in Sweden.

And why have you come to Germany?

Because of this woman.

What does she look like, this woman? Go to her. Have a close look at her.

She is tall and blonde.

What is her name?

Renate.

What is your profession?

I am a soldier.

Who to you serve, which army?

The Danish army.

They have employed you?

Yes.

What is the name of the Danish Commander? All of a sudden a name comes to you, 1, 2, 3.

Rexrot.

Is this a general?

This is a general.

Do you like serving in the Danish army?

Yes.

Where do you find yourself at the moment, in which part of Germany, where you‘ve killed your friend?

Very close to Denmark, in Schleswig-Holstein.

And your friend, what is his name?

Arthur.

Is he also Swedish?

No, he‘s German.

Where did you originally meet? Go to that place.

In Denmark, in the army.

What was it about Arthur that you liked so much?

(changing the topic:) Renate.

Did you both get acquainted with her at the same time?

I met her first.

And what was your relationship like at that time?

Very close, we planned on getting married.

And now, what happened with respect to Arthur? Tell me.

I had to go somewhere. I had a mission spreading over several weeks. On the west coast of Denmark. And Renate was in Germany. And Arthur went to see her.

What happened next?

They fell in love.

How did you find out?

I returned a little earlier, wanting to surprise Renate. I caught the two of them red-handed.

Now you‘ve killed Arthur in the field?

Yes, I’ve tricked him. I’ve pretended that it wasn‘t that bad for me at all.

But your blood was boiling inside?

Yes.

Now you‘ve killed this Arthur and you are feeling bad. How does Renate find out about Arthur’s death? Did you tell her?

Yes, I told her.

And what did you add?

I said: He shall not have you, but you shall not have me either.

Did you tell her then that it was you who killed him?

Yes, I pretended it was an accident so that my comrades thought it was an accident.

And only Renate knew...?

Yes, I have told her the truth.

How did she react?

She wanted to tell the whole world, but all I did was laugh.

And what came of it? Did she carry through her promise?

No.

How has your life continued?

I continued to work in the army. I remained single. I was no longer interested in having a wife.

How did you die?

I committed suicide.

How did you commit suicide?

I hanged myself.

How old were you at that time?

39.

I’ll now count to three, and then you‘ve just passed over. 1, 2, 3. How do you feel after your suicide?

Relieved.

If you could give your life a heading, what would it say?

It was for nothing.

And now if you were to say: "Never again will I ..." What would that be?

Never again will I take revenge.

- LIFE AFTER HIS DEATH -

Now go to what you experienced after your death. Where are you?

It‘s very peculiar. I am under an enormous bridge, and the water is quite black. And there are many, many figures there and they are hiding somewhere under this bridge. It is so dark.

And? How do you feel?

Caged-in. I have a feeling that I won’t get out of this.

Who do you encounter there? What kind of figures are these?

Sinister figures. They don’t speak either, they just keep walking to and fro.

They just glance at you?

Yes.

What are their faces like?

Very angry.

Do they do something to each other, these people?

No, they just keep walking up and down giving black looks.

Do you hear any words?

No, absolutely nothing, it‘s very quiet. All I hear is the murmur of this dark and dirty body of water. It‘s very quiet.

Where exactly are you? Under the bridge?

Yes.

Are you alone, or are there people next to you?

There are many near me.

Do they look at you? Are you looking at them?

No, they all walk about quite indifferently, but with an angry expression on their face.

Is it like “each on his own”?

Each on his own.

How are you right now?

Afraid.

And do you also look angry?

No.

What are you afraid of?

Of these people.

Why?

Because they don‘t say anything.

What is it that scares you about it?

I only fear the darkness.

Your darkness? Why don’t you describe this in detail. What are you afraid of?

I am afraid of becoming like the people here. I feel I don't belong here. I have been put into the wrong place.

(Normally, the deceased will arrive on “the other side” in a world of light. However, those who had planned and perpetrated evil in their life on earth will reach a kind of self-fashioned hell. Only when they start to search their soul or feel remorse, will they be gradually led back into the light.)

Then where do you belong?

Into the light.

What do you know about the light?

That it is warm and bright.

But how come you are now in the darkness? Do you find this unfair?

Yes, I do find it unfair.

Take a moment to think about it, why are you finding yourself in the darkness and not in the light?

Because I‘ve killed my friend.

Do you know this, or does your conscience tell you this?

Yes.

Then you should know why you find yourself in the darkness. Then why are you dissatisfied?

I think it‘s too severe, the punishment.

Bear in mind that doubtless you‘ve also made the German woman unhappy. Perhaps in her sorrow she never married or similar things. You took the life of your best friend. And then you committed suicide on top of it. Do you feel any feelings of guilt? Do you have any sense of guilt, apart perhaps of feeling guilty for having killed your friend?

Yes, I do have a sense of guilt, also towards the woman.

And you do have guilt feelings towards yourself, not just towards that woman and that friend?

Yes.

What kind of guilt feeling is this?

It‘s something one cannot get rid of, that is hemming me in.

What do you accuse yourself of?

I have made some wrong decisions.

What are you realizing now?

That I could have chosen other ways and means.

Such as?

I could have left both the woman and my friend. And I shouldn‘t have ended my life either.

I wonder if you are regretting this now?

Yes, I do regret it now.

As you are feeling those regrets, have you in some way... do you request help, are you praying, or what are you doing, now that you are so deeply immersed in those feelings of regret and remorse? And do you truly feel remorse? And what‘s happening next? Proceed to the next event.

I am still with these figures and I am very unhappy.

Do you ever feel a need to call for help?

I am scared to say anything. I expect those figures to pounce upon me in case I do. But they are silent, they simply don’t say a word, walking about with their angry faces.

I‘ll count to three, and then you’ll be in the next event. 1, 2, 3. What do you see or feel?

There‘s a ladder. I’m scrambling up the ladder.

Where do you arrive?

In the brightness.

How does everything look there?

It‘s a meadow, but not with flowers, just grass and some solitary trees. And I am all alone, but it is bright. I have a most wonderful feeling of happiness, because I am out of this tunnel. And as I look, the ladder is gone.

What are you doing on this meadow?

First I am breathing, breathing deeply. And I am rubbing my eyes, because everything is so bright. And then I am shouting: "Whoopee, whoopee, I‘ve done it!"

You are out of this darkness. You‘ve made it.

Out of this dungeon of guilt.

What is the next important event? 1, 2, 3. Now you are there.

I am breathing in smoke.

Is someone coming towards you? Are you going somewhere? What is happening?

There‘s a fire. On a vast expanse of land, there is also more grass again. But it‘s only a... like a May fire. They’ve stacked up a very big pile. It smells so nice. And I am going there.

What do you discover?

There‘s nobody there.

What else is happening?

I‘m looking around, starting by walking around the fire and calling: "Is anybody here?" I‘m looking round, but I don‘t see anyone, noone at all.

What happens then?

I am getting the wind up because the fire is dangerous.

Why is it dangerous?

There’s some dry firewood lying a bit further away that could catch it. There could be a blaze, a big blaze.

What could happen then?

Everything is so dry. There could be something like a steppe fire, a forest fire.

What are you doing about it?

I am beginning to run.

Where to?

In the direction that comes to me intuitively, to see if somewhere back there are houses with people inside where I can call for help.

Where do you finally arrive?

In a hut.

Are you alone?

No, there‘s a man there.

What kind of man? Have a look at him.

A man ... a hermit, with a long beard and long white hair and very nice, loving eyes.

How do you suddenly feel?

Good. Like having arrived. (faint laughter)

And what are you doing now?

I am telling him what I‘ve seen. He’s just slightly lifting his hand, saying: "Don't worry, this is a good fire."

Good fire?

Yes, it doesn‘t destroy, it warms.

What happens then?

I sit down beside the man, and I tell him my story. And I ask him how I can work off the guilt that I carry around with me.

What’s his reply?

Your sins are forgiven. He places his hands on my head. I fall on my knees, kissing his feet, and a feeling of great warmth starts to surround me.

Where is the warmth?

All around me, as if I were being enveloped in a golden light. I realize that all my sins have been forgiven. I feel the love, divine love. As I look up, the man has vanished.

Where are you now?

I am in this hut.

And what do you feel?

Happiness and gratitude.

What happens next with you?

I am free. I can now tackle everything.

What do you plan to tackle?

Now I will try to make up for things. I‘ll look for a task, a mission. I will find something to do, and I will make up for everything.

Now go on and look what happens further. Go to an important event. 1, 2, 3.

- LIFE AS AN ITINERANT PREACHER -

I see myself in a white robe.

What are you doing there?

I have people in front of me, out in the open. They are seated on wooden benches.

Who are you?

I am a preacher.

What do you preach to the people?

I preach that God forgives everything and that all we need do is realize that we have sinned and that Jesus died on the cross for us.

Where are you? In which country are you preaching?

I can‘t see this correctly.

I‘ll count to three, and then you will know where you are. 1, 2, 3.

In Israel.

Now you also know the year. 1, 2, 3.

It doesn’t work properly. (However, all of a sudden:) 77.

As a priest, are you married?

No.

Which faith do you belong to?

I am Jewish.

What‘s your name?

Abraham.

And how do they call you? How do people address you as a priest?

Sahiv. (The "v" sounds like a median sound between v and b.)

But not Rabbi?

No, not Rabbi.

That‘s your title? Sahiv Abraham?

Yes.

How old are you?

36.

Are you a happy man?

Yes.

Where do you preach? Do you have a temple, a church, a synagogue?

No. I wander.

Then how do you live and where do you sleep at night?

I go from place to place, and people give me things to eat and to wear. That’s all I need.

Take a look at your life and have a look at the highlights and major events.

I have been discarded somewhere as a foundling, but I don't know where. Someone raised me, an old woman. She gave me lots of love. She told me a lot about Jesus Christ. Then she died. And I had to spread this word, this love. And I can also heal people.

What else can you do?

I can also work and lend a helping hand.

You are Jewish, but you still spread the word of Jesus Christ?

Yes.

Do you belong to a church?

No.

Then how come you are a priest? You can only be named a priest by a church?

There was no church institution, there was some..., I don't know, from a man, who came to the old woman in this house. And he told me: "You will be a priest."

Before you met this woman, did you belong to another faith?

No, I was a baby.

You came to her as a baby?

Yes, she raised me.

- ONCE AGAIN BEFORE THE CLOUD GATE -

And all of a sudden, as I am counting to three, you are standing before the cloud gate with your Higher Self, 1, 2, 3, now you are there. You remember everything that you‘ve experienced, everything remains in your memory. And you are asking your Higher Self: What were you supposed to learn from your former life as a priest? What does your Higher Self say?

I was supposed to learn humility, and I was supposed to learn to trust people.

If you had to give a title to this life, what would it be?

A life of humility and gratitude.

- ON THE MOUNT OF REVELATION -

And finally your Higher Self is leading you to a mountain. It is the Mount of Revelation. And from up there, you have a view of all the lives that you have seen and experienced. You can see your life as Marion before you. You see your life as Evelyn, that maid in Holland, before you. You see your life as the merchant Mustafa in Africa. You see your life as Pit, the Swedish soldier in Danish services, and you see your life as Abraham. And you stand upon the Mount of Revelation with your Higher Self. And all of a sudden you realize why Evelyn was supposed to experience such terrible treatment by the flat-iron. What’s the reason for this, which karmic reasons are there? Ruminate a bit on that.

It has to do with the soldier.

Why?

The soldier had stabbed his friend in the chest.

And where was Evelyn treated very badly and burned with the flat-iron?

On her breasts.

Where does Marion have her main cancer?

In her breast.

Is it approximately the same place where the sword had entered?

Yes.

And do you, Marion, who is standing beside your Higher Self, suddenly realize something?

Yes.

And now consider Mustafa’s life. What does he have to do with Evelyn’s life? What could it be?

Mustafa had cut off the hand.

Compare his servant to the maid in Holland. She‘s also a servant.

Yes.

How then did this farmer treat this Evelyn?

Very badly.

And compare it to how Mustafa treated his servant.

Also badly.

Isn't there somehow a karmic relation to be inferred from this?

Yes, dependency.

And if we look at Abraham's life - why has your Higher Self shown you this life as Abraham?

It was supposed to show that all sins will be forgiven.

But wasn’t it also supposed to demonstrate how life should truly be lived?

Yes, it was.

...in contrast to those other lives where you were Mustafa and Pit, respectively.

Yes, in Love and Harmony.

Ask your Higher Self: in which time period exactly did you live this life as

the itinerant preacher?

I see 77.

Was this before all those lives as Pit, Mustafa and Evelyn?

Yes, this was beforehand.

And why has it been shown to you? Was it supposed to show you that you had already followed the correct path of life once before...

(shouting:) Yes, yes, that's it, that is it!!!

... and you practically had a relapse and backslided?

Yes, that's it.

Since you had lost what in the following lives, in comparison to Abraham, that enabled you to behave the way Mustafa or Pit did?

Love, and my trust in people and in God.

Your humility?

Yes.

And you committed great sins in your life as Mustafa and Pit. As Mustafa, you did feel that you had done something wrong, even though the law made you believe otherwise. You had a servant, who was below you and who acted out of need, greed or human weakness, and instead of showing leniency or simply sending him away, you enforced the inexorable law, severing his hand and making him a beggar because of it.

Perhaps he had done this out of his human weakness, and now he had to atone for the same for years to come as a beggar. And at some point you suddenly realized: "What have I done?" And your conscience awoke, and you felt that you got yourself loaded with a sin. And now have a look at the life as Pit. You‘ve already realized that you could have done quite a lot of things very differently. Perhaps you could have left both of them. Or when you realized that they loved each other, you could have blessed this alliance out of love. But you let yourself be carried away by your anger, your ego, your hurt pride.

Yes.

And not only did you make Arthur and Renate unhappy, but also yourself.

Yes.

You even committed suicide which got you into this darkness in the afterlife where you were together with your own kind, that is to say with murderers.

Yes.

However, gradually you came out of it again, you came to a hermit, and this person cleared things up for you and told you: "You are free of all blame, sin and guilt."

Yes.

And this acquittal allowed you to breathe freely again and to recover. You were free of guilt. But why, when you can choose the kind of life that you want, why then did you choose a life as Evelyn - as a maid in the bitterest kind of service? What did you want to achieve with that?

I wanted to punish myself.

And if you wanted to punish yourself, then you are bound to have chosen circumstances such as those found at the farmer’s household, where you really were being punished. Because this farmer, he did use you. He had intercourse with you, wherever and whenever he felt like it. And out of fear you simply gave in to him, forgot about your human dignity, because you did want to punish yourself. You did want to be treated this way. And that this farmer’s wife put the hot flat-iron on your breast, perhaps you also chose to have this experience. Because you somehow wanted to personally experience the same pain which, way back when, you had inflicted upon your friend Arthur. You wanted to feel this pain in order to punish yourself, to somehow redeem the act internally, before your own self.

Yes.

Do you agree with this?

Yes.

And now have a look at your life as Marion. When did you develop cancer as Marion? At what age did it happen?

At 43.

Can you imagine why you got cancer as Marion? Could it also have to do with self-inflicted punishment?

Yes, this still had to do with self-inflicted punishment.

Do you clearly recognize the causal connection?

I see it very clearly.

(Judging from analogous examples, I could well imagine that the cancer in Marion's left breast began to take root at the age of 41, the same age that Evelyn's breast was deformed.)

Can you see that your present-day cancer is an extension of the suffering you experienced as Evelyn, and that basically both these lives have been a delayed self-inflicted punishment, meant to make you atone for the sins committed in the lives as Mustafa and particularly as Pit?

Yes.

And then have a look at the life as Abraham that took place many centuries ago. At that time, you lived in reverence for God. You spread the idea of Christianity with all your love, because it came through your heart and because you were filled with deep love.

Yes.

All of a sudden you remember that after dying as Pit and finding yourself in that darkness, you suddenly met this hermit. What did he say to you?

All my sins are forgiven.

And you could accept that too?

Yes.

Could you also accept this today as Marion, that all your sins are forgiven?

Yes.

That your cancer is absolutely unnecessary since you don't need to punish yourself any longer?

No, I don't need this anymore.

Since it is senseless and silly to continue wanting to punish yourself? Surely you can give up such mechanisms of punishment now. Because you know that all those things happened a long time ago, and you don't need to punish yourself any longer. What are you really aiming at in this life as Marion again?

The same things that Abraham did.

Exactly. You are back on Abraham's track. Isn't it also quite symbolic, the name Abraham in connection with the return to the path of love, the divine love in your heart?

Yes.

And you‘ve come full circle from Abraham to Marion. In the time in-between, you‘ve lived some terrible lives, particularly those as Pit and Evelyn, in addition probably to many other lives. And now as you look back, was all you experienced not basically good? What have these experiences brought you back to?

They have brought me back to humility and gratitude.

And now that you realize this, couldn't you be thankful for all the hard and cruel lives you experienced?

Yes.

And that’s why you don't need to repress any of the things that you experienced at an earlier time. You have taken a look at them again. All things considered, you could even be thankful for having been Pit the murderer, and Mustafa, the man who severed another’s hand, and even Evelyn, because everything - even if indirectly – has helped you achieve a higher realization and cognition.

Yes.

You are reapproaching the state which you had internally achieved as Abraham.

Yes.

Basically you can now thank God, that you had this sudden revelation upon the Mount of Revelation via your HS. And your Higher Self is asking now: "Dear Marion, would you like to wave your cancer goodbye?"

Yes, I would.

And the Higher Self now hands you a golden chalice and says: "This is the golden Chalice containing a golden liquid. This liquid has the power to give love, to forgive, to heal wounds and to lift away, annul and neutralize all sin and guilt." Take this chalice now and go into the life that you lived as Pit. And go to Arthur, offering him the chalice. What will you say to Arthur?

Arthur, I request you to forgive me.

With all your Heart?

With all your heart.

And once again.

Arthur, forgive me with all your heart.

And once again.

Arthur, forgive me with all your heart.

And now go to Renate. Let her drink from the cup too, if you like. What would you like to say to her?

I also want to tell her: "Renate, forgive me with all your heart."

And once again.

"Renate, forgive me with all your heart."

And once again.

"Renate, forgive me with all your heart."

And now all of a sudden you are standing in front of Pit. He has just hung himself. Offer him the chalice. What would you like to say to him – now that you have realized everything?

Pit, I forgive you with all my heart.

And once again -

Pit, I forgive you with all my heart.

And once again -

Pit, I forgive you with all my heart.

And now you take a big leap and find yourself in the life as Mustafa. And you go to Mullah whose hand has been severed and who is living somewhere as a beggar. Now stand in front of him. Present him with the chalice. What do you say to him, while offering him this drink?

Mullah, forgive me with all your heart. (3x)

And then stand in front of Mustafa. Offer him the chalice likewise. What do you say to him?

Mustafa, I forgive you with all my heart. (3x)

All of a sudden, you are in the life as Evelyn. And now you stand in front of the farmer, offering him the chalice. What do you say to him?

Farmer, I forgive you with all my heart. (3x)

You now go to the farmer's wife and also give her the chalice to drink from.

...

(At this point, the recording ended.)

It was further discovered upon the Mount of Revelation that the farmer who had sexually abused Evelyn, is now Gerhard, her colleague at work, to whom she thereupon offered the golden chalice with the liquid of forgiveness. That bride Renate, whom Pit had repudiated, is a friend in Marion‘s present life. Right from the start, Marion had the feeling that she had something to make up to her.

Her release affirmation was as follows: "I am now free of cancer, of all mechanisms of self-inflicted punishment and of all karmic guilt.”

A few weeks following this (one and only) therapy session I learned that Marion was in the best of health. A medical examination revealed no traces of cancer.

Three years later, briefly before this book was completed, I called her on the phone. Much to my pleasure, I heard that she continued to go for regular check-ups but that no trace of cancer could be found. She told me and I quote: "I have conquered my cancer. I now help other patients to conquer theirs."

* Alpha state: a state bridging the waking and sleeping state, brain wave frequencies c. 13 to 8 Hertz. We pass through this state each time we fall asleep (sleep frequency c. 7.5 to c. 3.5 Hertz) and wake up (waking state or Beta state, c. 13.5 Hertz to 40 Hertz)

More on healing through regression therapy on Trutz Hardo’s excellent site www.trutzhardo.com and in his upcoming book “THE GREAT KARMA HANDBOOK - Reincarnation and Healing” from which the above excerpt was translated.

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